Just trying to relax.
Shit is fucking stressful at times. Fun at times. It's a rooller fucking coaster and I'll ride that fucker until the rail runs out and we drop a thousand miles or meters or whatever it takes to kill.
I like suicide.
Fuck it I like it.
I've never done it actually. Might have tried stfu.
But I caught one of them films I seen already about Ian CCurtis the other night and a few other things very much related to suicide the next few days. Made me wonder.
I'd recently downed a shit ton of whiskey and for no decent reason grabbed at a three-blade loaded blade to try and rip those fuckers out and drag em across my wrists.
I recalled appalled in the morning, wondering why the fuck I would contemplate such a thing. But I did. But I couldn't extract the blades (design I guess) so I just went and fell asleep drunk on the sofa.
On the whiskey tonight I was 'surfing youtube'. came across http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X4bAL95za0I&feature=related
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Left a comment - wait I saidf that (I was onthe whiskey member?>)
It's good music. But Rob should have either killed or reinvented himself that's all. Fuckin Jesus Roibert. Fuckin hell. alruight back to the booze. gnight.
