I'm still alive.

I like to drink still.

I'd like to hear from you. I miss you.

I've had five psychotic episodes and I will write about them sometime. Might probably take another twenty years. But I'm on the meds that keep it from happening again... maybe even if I have a joint or two.

I di miss you... if you're somehow still around. We all got done for this or drifted away... I never got done I just kept below the radar with three or more blogs and didn't 'trade' or search for clicks. (CLICK THE ADS!) But nah I never really bothered. Got stuck into the community via chat and that was fun for a while, buit rarely did any trades and just enjoyed myself in my poverty at the time.

I never thought I would find love (and then destroy it) but I did and it was great until it wasn't - look, I look great here:

It was taken by my lover at the time.. maybe you know her.
She shaved that bit of my head the night before and she gave me the spike in my hair to offset it. She also gave me a nice amount of make up when I needed it..:

And did a fine lil portrait:

That was all thanks to her. I miss everyone [from here]... but I suppose I miss her the most. I would. She used to suck dick through a whole movie without any cum. And it was sweet as could be. INTIMATE.

But I'll never see her again. She lives on the other side of the globe with 'him'. Fuck them both tbh. I just can't get over that. She said she wouldn't go there again even though she did once after we 'broke up' but she went there and as far as I know has been there since. He studied philosophy WHAT?! He was one of the most childish humoured persons I've ever met. He called me a "Potato Nigger" and laughed.

Well, that's her life now I guess (unless she's left him for a worse see you next Tuesday... which I was one). I don't want to get into it here but I abused her severely - digitally because it was a long distance relationship but I beat her down as much as I could from my keyboard and that was that, she went off with him.

I was in the middle of a psychotic episode. And I've have two since. It's tough to get down on a page and I'm leaving myself 20 years to do so, so check back then! But it's a wild time I can't explain just yet. Sometimes in it you make wrong decisions of being overly 'truthful' to people you love and end up pushing them away - even though you're reaching out with both limbs extended as far as they'll go.

It's been a strange few years... many of it sitting on my ass in front of a computer without typing very much or not recording mic or editing video or whatever I used to do pre-episode or post!.. or during. There's lots out there to review if you can find it!

I generally like to chill and put something of mild interest on the Internet and soak up heat from my heater in the Winter and just ignore if the Sun is out in the Summer. But thanks for tuning in today. Leave a message. I might be gone and forgotten, but you mightn't be so keep typing or trying x.

Once upon a time, a quirky little fanboy had a dream that his heroes Thomas and Guy were whispering a Love Song into each ear. It was syncopation incarnate.
 This is what it sounded like:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_detailpage&v=e8IHtRjZ2ak

Digital Love PryON Dreamix
By Daft Punk (as if you need reminding). This is dreamy.
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Ryan Peter Lee Some time latyer that post-Pinocchio Peter Pan became a 'man child'. The operation afforded him some cyborgtronix to be embedded in his bwainz.
He travelled far across Computer Worlds aplenty.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iqDt9hCHDT0
Computer Worlds PryON edit
It's all by Kraftwerk, if you didn't know. I hope this is cool with their robo-souls.

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Ryan Peter Lee He left that Earth soaring on blissful vox and pounding machinery.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2vWK53UKPro
The Bells - Rat Chase PryON Re Edit (Vocal Dub)
Thought it would be cool to edit the structure of Bells backwards. It's by Jeff ...See more

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Ryan Peter Lee And landed in a place not far from Motor City, on a Street called Hubbard.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N97lEYGwjJ4

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Freaks On Hubbard PryON 33.333 Remix
Found my Freeeks remix! wooot dugga boom chugga blink blonk Original tune by DJ Rush - no dis intended luv u Isiah

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Ryan Peter Lee GIVE LIFE BACK TO THE MUSIC PEOPLES!
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Ryan Peter Lee http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SRJOk7z4mws
Daft Punk Give Life Back To Music - [2013]

So livid

17 Seconds

Just trying to relax.
Shit is fucking stressful at times. Fun at times. It's a rooller fucking coaster and I'll ride that fucker until the rail runs out and we drop a thousand miles or meters or whatever it takes to kill.

I like suicide.
Fuck it I like it.
I've never done it actually. Might have tried stfu.
But I caught one of them films I seen already about Ian CCurtis the other night and a few other things very much related to suicide the next few days. Made me wonder.

I'd recently downed a shit ton of whiskey and for no decent reason grabbed at a three-blade loaded blade to try and rip those fuckers out and drag em across my wrists.

I recalled appalled in the morning, wondering why the fuck I would contemplate such a thing. But I did. But I couldn't extract the blades (design I guess) so I just went and fell asleep drunk on the sofa.

On the whiskey tonight I was 'surfing youtube'. came across http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X4bAL95za0I&feature=related

Left a comment:

Joy Division rip off.

Ian is dead and beautiful.

Fuck, Robert... fucking ouch! wtf happened you to yourself? At least Ian Curtis had the good sense to kill himself ffs!

Left a comment - wait I saidf that (I was onthe whiskey member?>)
It's good music. But Rob should have either killed or reinvented himself that's all. Fuckin Jesus Roibert. Fuckin hell. alruight back to the booze. gnight.

generally disgruntled

Alright.
So now I'm mildy specifically disgruntled. Music not quite loud enough - FNM Jizzlobber, shit quality etc.
But I was going to dedicate to Gen Dist. and fuck you man. Don't reply to me. Don't be on the fucking internet or shit.
Fuck you.
I was going to write a glowing report of you in spite of that fact I hadn't got to read your awesome stuffs properly but you're still hanging around like the bad smell I fucking know you are.
The kind of bad smell that some woman would fucking suck up through her lady-bits or could infiltrate a whole bar in such a way people would take notice - in a 'good' way (or probably bad, but some could fucking adore).

I appreciate it, I DO, but you're something I'll never really get to because I'm only on line once in a while. MOTHERFUCKER you're worth a shit ton more than that.

I think that's all I can say. ffs fuck OFF. I love you.

Dun got my shit togethah

Hey there fuckoes [if anyone is indeed paying attention].
So I've been *relatively* sober lately... wow.
Been working on my youtube channel - youtube.com/user/unsoundsoundinfo
I got me a girly and all the things!

Yeah we never saw any of that coming. What a boring cunt I am becoming. I was reading my 'gin night post' and the aftermath. Some insane shit right there. Very unhealthy altogether, not that I regret a fucking second of it.
Not to go into detail, but I actually wouldn't be in the position I'm in now if not for that night.

Might be moving out of this crumby apartment, might even get a job. Maybe not, who knows? And even if I don't, I'm pretty content with how things are for the moment (yeah, not to tempt fate and suggest it will all fuck up in my face... *grimace face*).

To paraphrase Waits in 'Cigarettes and Coffee' - the best thing about 'quitting' is knowing you can have another one, so who knows?.. for old times' sake soon I might just get fucking sloshed and spend a night on here, reconnecting properly with all y'all and give you a good old dose of the good old PryON doing what I do best.

peace, bitches

P.S. Sorry about the popup ads, but I really can't be arsed finding out how to remove them, so CLICKEM! Not even sure where the account is or my login or how to get any money I definitely haven't made enough of, but click 'em anyway DO IT!

Giving something back.

I can't believe some of you morons still pay attention when I post. It's been well over a year since I started ranting here, and ten fucking MONTHS since I stopped posting with any regularity whatsoever, and yet a couple of you even take the time to comment if I post. Wow.

But I appreciate it you adorable motherfuckers. It wawrms mah bawls like a crack whore's mouth on a hot July night (guess what I'm doing / having done to me right now bitches?)

And so, I finally deliver to you a piece of recording I made. I only did it because a certain lecherous bitch who shall remain named Erika kept banging on about it to me*.

I even went to the fuse box to shut off the fridge to record this so you better fucking dig it fuckoes.

Oh look, I fucking embedded a video

*Don't tell anyone - I think it's supposed to be 'on the qt/dl/stfu about it', but we run a blog now at ushouldblogaboutit.blogger.com
Looks gay as hell right now because it's just thrown up there and I was feeling a six year old... I mean LIKE a six year old girl when I chose the colours.
That's where the 'inspiration' behind this recording came from sort of... actually I told her I'd had been singing the high pitched fucking chimpster version when she said 'you should blog about it'. Fuck it, flame me hard for this one muchachos.